This summer my family and I entered a family sandcastle competition. Although we didn’t win, it was a lot of fun.
Here are some pictures of the snake I built:
… this one really hit me. I was scrolling through my Facebook wall when it came up as my aunt’s status. I had been thinking hard before I saw it, and when I did, stuff just kind of came together. I’m not a huge Bob Marley fan, and his quotes are great, but this one really did it:
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
― Bob Marley
Having trust issues isn’t the best thing, and you constantly live in a mindset that people are out to get you. And when something goes wrong, well, you back off because you don’t want another person in your life that’s going to break you down. But no one is perfect. Even the best person in the world to you is going to make mistakes. They might not even realize what they’re doing, or how it’s effecting you. Maybe you just don’t understand their logic. You never know what’s going on inside another person’s head.
I’m not much of a person to open up to people. I don’t like having emotion, and when I do, I don’t like it and try to hide it. This, as you can imagine, can make it hard to understand me. But I’ve come to realize that sometimes I need to just buck up and tell people things I don’t want to share. I’ll do it for them. Just recently my closest friend, the one person I could REALLY trust and the only one I talked to about my problems, broke my trust. They pushed me away, treated me like dirt, and lied about a lot of things. It was heart wrenching when I found out. But after sitting down and thinking WAY too much, I realized that I hadn’t been looking at what was going on in their life from their perspective, and knew that even if this incident happened this once, they are still very important to me and I am willing to suffer to fix our friendship again. I don’t mind that it means I have to share when I don’t like to share, or that I have to understand that I’ve made a big mistake and I’m the one to blame. All that matters to me is to fix what I’ve done and be a better friend than I was before.
So if you feel let down, or confused, or just plain treated poorly by someone you care about, just remember that people aren’t perfect. And some people are worth fighting for.
My mind is racing
I can’t stop shaking
Focus leaves me
But my brain deceives me
And suddenly I am ONE
Oh no, it’s that controversial, offensive genre. Urgh, right? …..Maybe not though. Maybe you’re a metalhead sitting at home and blaring some metal right now. This post is mostly for those people out there who don’t like the idea of metal though, so if that’s you, read this!
I once preferred Alternative music. Soft guitar, flowing music…. gentle stuff. (And I still like it no doubt). In my home growing up, my parents implied that anyone who has a style similar to a metalhead or punk, etc. was a bad influence and blah blah blah. You know what I mean, right? Well, until grade 10 I didn’t really start to listen to music. By the end of grade 11 I loved alternative. Then, in grade 12m I was introduced to punk and metal. I must admit, when you listen to it (metal especially) for the first time, it DOES just sound like noise. But wait! You listen to it a few more times, kind of get used to it, and realize that the reason it sounded like noise the first few times is because metal is very complex with multiple parts to it. You might eventually be able to understand the “screaming” parts too. Admit it, it takes mad talent to sing like them. I can’t do it, and I’m in musical theater!
Okay, now we get down to the lyrics. Sure, some of the concepts in the songs you might not like, but isn’t that true for most music anyway? Nowadays all the mainstream pop lyrics are only about partying and sex most of the time anyway. At least metal has some cleverness to its writing style. Here’s a cool meme I found about the lyrics comparison:
Sorry Lil Wayne. Metal lyrics are poetry. Complex and meaningful (or at least to some of us).
Instrumentals are probably the main reason people cling to metal, however. The guitar solos are extremely difficult, and usually there can be a lot of variety to the song instead of repetitive, electronic stuff. I don’t have much to say on this part, but hey! It’s great!
For those of you who haven’t listened to metal before, I suggest trying some harder rock first before, just so it’s not an extremely drastic change in style from whatever you happen to normally listen to. When you do decide its time to listen to some metal, I suggest starting with something like Metallica which is a nice classic band that isn’t too heavy (this is a slower, less intense song by them too):
If you’re ready to try some different styles of metal:
There’s even pirate metal. If you think that sounds cool, check out Alestorm.
So dear bloggers, I hope you give metal a chance. And if after a while it just isn’t sticking (although its addictive if you find the right kind…. death, black, symphonic, thrash, etc.) maybe you’ll at least understand why we love it so much!
Or you’ll continue to be confused. That happens too. 😛
Of a new dawn
A new dimension
Off the edge
Embracing the shadows
Can you see it
Through the smoke?
____Can you hear it
____Through the screams?
_________Can you look past
_________The strong pretensions?
____can you fEel the HATE
____that BUILT iT?
Can you see you
Through the smoke?
The new era
And no this is not about Satanism nor does the pentagram stand for it in this case.
This is a drawing I created absentmindedly doodling in my notebook recently. I started out with a simple pencil sketch of the wolf, the proceeded to add the strokes and wisps surrounding it. I finally finished with the eye with it’s inscription.
I don’t normally like explaining the metaphors behind my art to it’s audience. This is because I like the audience to be able to interpret it themselves and see what it means personally to them. I encourage you, dear reader, to do any interpreting you wish before reading the next section then, for I will explain this drawing’s significance.
This drawing was created when I was day dreaming about a recent encounter with a close friend of mine, who I have not talked with in over a year. After talking with them for some time I came to realize just how similar we had become and just how much I could relate and understand what they said. I then came to think about my own inner demons with whom I have been at a constant battle with throughout this year with now hope in finding someone to aid in my combat. I had lost my faith in humanity, even in my friends, and I no longer could trust my heart to have faith lie in an outside source. After my talk with this friend, however, I saw the long lost, very faint spark of hope flicker in the depths of my mind. Maybe I had found someone who could help guide my path. This drawing shows a demon surrounded in shadow; an inner demon surrounded with an aura of misery and anger. It lashes at the soul, but really, this demon is part of the full soul but was transformed by anguish and misery. The demon calls to this mysterious eye for saving. It wishes to become whole once more as no longer a demon but a true, full soul. It sees this eye, takes faith, and reaches out to it.