… this one really hit me. I was scrolling through my Facebook wall when it came up as my aunt’s status. I had been thinking hard before I saw it, and when I did, stuff just kind of came together. I’m not a huge Bob Marley fan, and his quotes are great, but this one really did it:
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
― Bob Marley
Having trust issues isn’t the best thing, and you constantly live in a mindset that people are out to get you. And when something goes wrong, well, you back off because you don’t want another person in your life that’s going to break you down. But no one is perfect. Even the best person in the world to you is going to make mistakes. They might not even realize what they’re doing, or how it’s effecting you. Maybe you just don’t understand their logic. You never know what’s going on inside another person’s head.
I’m not much of a person to open up to people. I don’t like having emotion, and when I do, I don’t like it and try to hide it. This, as you can imagine, can make it hard to understand me. But I’ve come to realize that sometimes I need to just buck up and tell people things I don’t want to share. I’ll do it for them. Just recently my closest friend, the one person I could REALLY trust and the only one I talked to about my problems, broke my trust. They pushed me away, treated me like dirt, and lied about a lot of things. It was heart wrenching when I found out. But after sitting down and thinking WAY too much, I realized that I hadn’t been looking at what was going on in their life from their perspective, and knew that even if this incident happened this once, they are still very important to me and I am willing to suffer to fix our friendship again. I don’t mind that it means I have to share when I don’t like to share, or that I have to understand that I’ve made a big mistake and I’m the one to blame. All that matters to me is to fix what I’ve done and be a better friend than I was before.
So if you feel let down, or confused, or just plain treated poorly by someone you care about, just remember that people aren’t perfect. And some people are worth fighting for.